Hey now, I'm not THAT old just yet. Though every time I'm asked my age I still want to blurt out "19" for some reason. I haven't come to terms with the fact that I'm in my 20s yet -__-

Would you rather be hot or cold?
Cold, by far. When I'm cold I can actually do something about it - wear a thousand sweaters, get a blanket, clamp onto Pedro, sit by the fire, etc. The heat is fucking inescapable, that's the worst part about it. To make matters worse, NO ONE around here has air conditioning. It doesn't get hot in Seattle often, but when it does, it is shit. Back when I worked at the grocery store the ONE thing that would make me look forward to a shift was the fact that the store was air conditioned. I would just tell people the glass in the freezer aisle needed cleaning and spend half of my shift lurking in the cold <3

Can you sleep through thunderstorms?
Well, Pedro's convinced I could sleep through nuclear war >__> But I HOPE a thunderstorm would wake me up! I wouldn't want to sleep through it, I love them and we rarely get them around here.

What does it take to get you out of bed early (before 9 am)?
Eh, 9 isn't that early. Some quarters I have class early enough that I have to be up by 9, but this quarter I don't have to be on campus until 12:30 or 1:30 and I'm still up by 8 most days. I used to get up at 5 every day for no particular reason during the year after high school that I spent starving myself and writing (I didn't go to college straight out of high school, hence why I'm almost always the oldest person in my classes despite looking the youngest -__-).

Ever spent the night in a tent?
Yep! It's been a long time though... I miss camping.

Is it ever okay for a woman to ask out a man?
Why would it not be okay?

Do people confide in you?
I suppose. People I'm close with anyway.

Ever been around someone who makes you feel stupid?
Yes, those people are called every other student at the University of Washington. Everyone is all motivated and ambitious and shit. STOP THAT.

How often do you use instant messenger?
I haven't used it since my most recent breakup, so several months. He and I were in a long distance relationship, so we would always chat on there before skyping. We started talking on there as well. Sigh. Memories. I don't think I ever could use instant messenger again. It's so strongly associated with him, it would only inspire that nauseating combination of guilt and nostalgia that I'm all too familiar with -__-

What do you call your grandparents?
I only have one living grandparent, who I call "grandma." The others were just "grandma" and "grandpa" as well.

What do you do when you have trouble falling asleep?
I usually just lie there for a while and cuddle with Pedro, sometimes simple physical comfort is enough to block out whatever emotional unpleasantness I'm experiencing. That doesn't always work though, so sometimes I'll just take an extra Xanax and/or smoke a bowl and bring my laptop to bed to scroll through tumblr or watch a Ghibli movie. I always get tired eventually.

Have you ever cried while reading a book?
If I didn't cry then the book probably wasn't very good.

How many college degrees do you want?
Just the one I'm working on, I suppose. I'm not planning on going to grad school, though there's a small chance I'll attempt to get a masters in technical communication. We shall see. I may not end up pursuing technical writing at all.

Where do you call home?
Seattle, I guess. "Home" is a few different locations for me here. It's my dad's house, where I grew up from the age of two. It's my mom's house, because my mom basically IS my concept of home (also she has a pretty sweet house, and literally the most adorable puppy I have EVER seen). It's also Pedro's bedroom, and my best friend's bedroom. It's also my family's cabin in the Cascades. It's all the places where I feel most comfortable, I suppose n__n

Would you ever attend a “black tie” formal event?
Like a wedding? I've been to a couple of those. My cousin's was the best because he had a blue Kool-Aid fountain. Other than that, uh, sure? I guess? I can't even think of examples of other "black tie" events. Aside from funerals. Also been to a couple of those, but I don't think that's what we're talking about here.

Do you like animals?
Much more than I like people.

Have you ever written anything longer than 10 pages?
Haaaahaha. 10 pages. I had to write papers longer than that in high school. I've written things longer than that for my own amusement.

What do you wear to sleep?
Usually just my underwear (but I don't wear bras, so that means just my boyshorts/panties/whatever). I actually kind of prefer to sleep with a shirt on as well, but it gets too hot when I'm sleeping next to Pedro, and I do like the closeness. But still, sometimes I just feel too gross and have to wear a shirt.

What do you look forward to most in the next 2 months?
Hmm, two months, March and April. Well, Easter, because everyone knows Easter has the best candy. Sorry, Halloween. And THE END OF WINTER QUARTER. I am so ready for it to be over with, ugh. Not that I'm really looking forward to next quarter's classes - got some boring shit coming up. But I've just been sick so much this quarter that I've missed even MORE class than usual... Once I've missed enough class I start feeling like the professor is silently judging me every time I do show up, so I eventually become too nervous to go even when I'm perfectly healthy. It's difficult enough to show up and face the other students on a daily basis ._.

How important is it for a significant other to be good with kids?
Eh. It's not especially important in and of itself since I'm pretty sure I don't want kids. That being said, it IS extremely adorable when guys are good with kids, and people who are good with kids usually seem to be good with adults as well. But it's meh, I'm not especially great with kids, so it's hardly something I expect of my partner.

Do you have anyone who is a surrogate parent/sibling to you?
YES, my best friend is my sister from another mister :3

Ever fallen asleep sitting up?
It's almost impossible for me to fall asleep sitting up, makes long airplane rides unbearable because I just CANNOT sleep o__o Sometimes I'll fall asleep kind of sitting up but leaning on something like a pillow or Pedro, but I'm always half lying down.

Can you snap your fingers?
Yep, it took me goddamn forever to figure it out though.

Can you wink?
I guess? I don't like, wink at people though >__>

Do you wear a belt?
Nope, I usually wear leggings because jeans and other pants never fit me properly, so belts are kind of out of the question. I probably wouldn't bother anyway.

Any jewelry in the room you’re in?
None aside from the ring on my finger (from my mom, tehe). Unless Pedro has some secret stash of jewels that I don't know about hidden in his bedroom.

What song explains how you feel about love?
Ehh... I don't think any are spot on, mostly because I don't even have a clear definition of what I think love is.

Do you know how to play pool?
Not really. I learned at some point, I remember someone explaining it well, and I understood it, but now I can't seem to recall...

What about foosball?
That's just kind of like...weird airhocky if I remember correctly. Get the ball in the other person's goal, ???, profit.

Have you ever finished reading an entire book in a day?
Yep, I can get REALLY into a book if it's good enough, and I read quickly.

Ever known anyone who was a tomboy?
In elementary and middle school, I suppose. None of them really stayed that way though.

What is something that begins with Z?
Zoo. AWW, I want to go to the zoo soon. Michelle always likes to go, but I want to take Pedro sometime too because he hasn't been to the zoo in Seattle, and it's actually a decent one.

What kind of person do you hope to be when you’re 35 years old?
I... can't even imagine, to be honest. I'd like to think I'll have my shit together by then, have figured out my life and found a stable career... but that's the part I can't imagine ._.

How many keys do you carry with you?
Three: Mom's house, Dad's house, Pedro's apartment.

Have you ever been IN a wedding?
Naw, just attended.

Does hardship make a person stronger?
I think it can, depending on the person and the hardship in question. But it can also have the complete opposite effect. I've never felt strengthened by the difficulties in my life, but they've shaped my character, personality, insecurities, etc. In my opinion hardship doesn't inspire strength so much as depth of character, emotional intelligence, and a high capacity for empathy. (Mind you, I'm referring mostly to emotional hardship.)

What comes to mind when you think of pregnancy?
The thought of pregnancy disgusts me on some deep level and makes me feel distinctly uncomfortable. I can't explain it, but I've felt this way ever since I can remember. It doesn't bother me so much when others are pregnant, mind you, but the thought of it happening to me just makes me want to bleach my brain. Sometimes I think it's related to my not entirely cis gender identity. There is a part of me that identifies as male, whether I want to admit it or not. And again, it's been that way ever since I can remember.

Have you ever attended a professional sporting event?
Yep, I used to go to Mariners (baseball) games with my dad every now and then when I was a kid.

What is your favorite brand of clothing?
I don't really pay much attention to brands, I just buy whatever I can find that's reasonably priced, COMFORTABLE, and somewhat aesthetically pleasing >__>


Which do you value more, intellect or work ethic?
Intellect.

Have you ever been covered in mud?
Not since I was a little kid, but oh yes.

What U.S. cities have you not visited that you would like to visit?
So many, holy shit. I really haven't traveled even my own country much. Off the top of my head:
- New York City
- Los Angeles
- Anchorage
- N'AWLINZ (even though any place in Dixieland would probably be very politically unpleasant for a liberal hippie dippie such as myself)
- Portland (Maine, been to Oregon plenty of times) - I want to see the fall colors in New England.
- gonna stop myself there
That being said, I'm far more interested in traveling foreign countries.

Which do you watch more, ESPN or MTV?
No. Just no.

How well do you know the people you live with?
Well, I should hope I know my parents pretty well. And I'm pretty sure I know Pedro well by now, though we've only been together since the end of summer so I imagine there's plenty of learning about one another left to do.

Do you have any heroes?
I've never really understood the whole concept, to be honest. I remember having little writing assignments about such things in elementary/middle school - I was always like WAT DO.


Ever been to a cabin on a mountain?
Countless times. My family happens to own a cabin on a mountain :3

Do you want to be married and have a family of your own later in life?
I'm not so clear on my thoughts about marriage. I think I could be perfectly happy just being with someone, not necessarily marrying, but living together, no paperwork, rings, or white dresses needed. And that would be a little family of my own. Honestly I feel like I already have a little family of my own with myself, Pedro, and our kitty.
That being said, I understand there are financial benefits to marriage, but still... I've seen too many divorces.


How hard is it for you to stay on task?
EXTREMELY. Although, that's assuming it's a task I'm not interested in, such as classwork. If it's something like photoediting, making gifs, writing fiction, etc, I'm far more likely to remain focused.

Ever lost your voice?
Ugh, just last month actually. I sounded like one of those dogs that's had it's vocal cords snipped (fucking cruel practice, by the way). It's happened a few other times too, but only when I have a particularly bad cold, usually with a cough associated. LIKE THE ONE I HAVE NOW. I'm just waiting for my voice to disappear again, it's only a matter of time -__-

Do you take your time when making an important decision?
Eh. I don't even want to think about thinking about making important decisions. I don't know how I manage to do it, to be honest.

Could you handle being away from home for weeks at a time for your job?
Most definitely not. I don't understand how people can travel for work. Even traveling for pleasure wears me out. I just don't have the energy required for a job like that o__o

Are you a cautious person?
For the most part, sure, but I have my impulsive moments. I also have something of an invincibility complex when it comes to certain drugs. "I know opiates regularly ruin people's lives, but there's no way I'm going to get addicted /ignorance." I'm also far less afraid of bears than is probably healthy. At least I've learned to be more fearful of the city, and of people. I was too open and trusting when I was younger, and completely unaware of my disadvantages as a woman. For example, as a teenager I wasn't afraid of sexual assault because I considered myself unattractive to the point of not being a sexual object. Experience has taught me that plenty of men view all women, regardless of appearance, as pieces of meat. Luckily, I never learned the hard way.

Do you enjoy comedy shows?
Sure. I usually prefer watching anime or other animated shows, but I love It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia. I really don't watch much TV though. I prefer the computer when it comes to entertainment.

Do you chew gum?
Not as often as I used to. I was always chewing gum at work.

Do you own any jerseys?
A couple of hockey jerseys from my ex boyfriend. I've never been able to bring myself to get rid of anything that was his or that he gave me. It's not that I have lingering romantic feelings for him, but I miss the good times we had together, and I'll always remember him fondly.

Do you have a song stuck in your head?
Nah, but I'm listening to music at the moment, so.

Do you like your job?
Don't have one at the moment. University is my job -__- I hated my old job though, if that counts. Well, I didn't always hate it, it was fun back in the day, but management changed and things went to shit in the end.

Do you have a close relationship with your father?
Eh, in some ways. I don't really share the more personal details of my life with him, and he's never been able to understand my depression or anxiety issues so I don't do my best to hide them nowadays. I have to put on somewhat of an act around him, so he doesn't know me nearly as well as my mom, my best friend or even my boyfriend. In his defense, I've disappointed him in a lot of ways over the years. But I know he still loves me, and so long as we restrict our conversations to superficial topics we can have a laugh about things sometimes.

Is there anything worrying you right now?
I don't really care to go into it at the moment, but pretty much all the usual things.

Do you believe life is what you make it?
To a certain degree, yes. But there are just so many factors that can randomly change life for the better or worse, and most of them are completely out of our control.